Friday, June 11, 2010

feeing of loss...

Today is Friday. I am so gad it is Friday! This week was destine to feel long. On Monday when my husband left for work, I almost told him not to worry because it was Friday. I am glad I didn't say that as I wouldn't want to have got his hopes up, even for a second, plus I would have sounded silly.

While I am happy to see the weekend here and excited to be able to spend time with my husband, I also feel a sense of loss today. You see I felt like I had found a way to minister to others every Friday morning when my friend Misti and I went to garage sales. I felt so glad to be able to be used by God, to be able to make a persons day by asking them if we could pray for them. I also felt like it brought me closer to God. I was feeling so open and excited to do whatever it was that God would lead me to do. Now, I just feel lost. I know that I need to stay out of the heat in order to help the baby inside of me stay inside of me.

Now I wonder, how am I to be used by God? I felt so strongly that He led me to the garage sales each week for a reason. But where will he lead me when I can't even go? This line made it sound like I can't go outside the house, which I can, I just can't be in the heat, and really in Oklahoma there isn't much you can do with out being in the heat.

I am sorry to be such a downer today. I just really miss my normal Friday morning ministry time.

Are you a stay at home mom? Do you have any ideas on how a pregnant mom can be used to help and minister to others?


Erin said...

Maybe pray for the people having garage sales and that God will meet their needs only in the way that He can do? I mean, I realize that you can't see them face-to-face, but God still knows who are having garage sales and He still knows your heart and I think that your prayers can still be used to make someone's day, even if you don't know all of the details.

That's my best advice for now. I mean it is 9:00 am and all. ;c)

Squirly Girls said...

I am so glad God gave you a ministry opportunity for those months, but He has called you to a greater cause -- the future. Your two little ones are the greatest of callings. As a stay at home mom it does not seem that way, but that is Satan trying to minimize God's plan. Stay encouraged. You are at the end of the pregnancy. I'd love to tell you things are going to get easier, but you have a little one you know things just stay busy. But, it will get easier as you get to have your body back. You have been blessed to participate in God's plan. He gave you two sons. Now it is your job to "train them in the way they should go" so that they can go out into the world one of these days and share God's word.
I have always thought of blogging as a ministry tool. You never know how your words will affect the lives of those who read them. So, use your site to be real, share God's word, and encourage those who are two steps behind you in life.
Praying for you!!!!

Anonymous said...

I've been lurking for a long time. I don't even remember how I was led to your blog in the first place. I just felt compelled to comment today.

I don't know if you realize this but THIS BLOG has been an amazing ministry. It is so refreshing to have a glimpse into the life of a young Christian wife and mother. I am very new in my walk with Christ and I see you as a sort of a role model for me. I, too, am a young wife and mother of a toddler. We have had many of the same experiences and I admire the way that you always keep such a positive outlook on life. You give all of the glory to Him and your sweet spirit has touched my heart.

Thank you for sharing your testimony with the world. From what I can tell, you are a wonderful wife and mother. Think of it this way - you might not be able to go out and reach people with your Friday morning garage sale ministry (which is only temporary) but you are unselfishly giving all of yourself to BOTH of your children. They will grow up to be amazing Christian men and will be able to share the love of Christ with everyone they meet. You are, in turn, touching countless lives.

You and your family are in my prayers.

Brinlee's Mom

Misti said...

Oh sweet friend. I am sorry you had such a rough Friday. :( I really missed you. I can bring you prayer requests and we can still pray for the people I meet on Friday. Would you like that? Love you!

Rai and Shannon said...

I always knew my kids were gifts from God, but the day I figured out that these gifts were my ministry was the day that I stopped feeling like "just a stay at home mom". I am sure that God laid on your heart to pray for the people at garage sales, but life has it's seasons, and now yours is in the season of growing that gift from God and protecting him. God has a plan and a purpose for your boys, and I'm sure that plan involves you being a mommy who ministers to them and grows them into Godly men! I know your frustrations...been there, done that...and still feel it some days! Hang in there and know that you have friends in the blog world and real world praying for you and that sweet baby boy!