Wednesday, August 17, 2016

Week two of no refined sugars...

This week seemed easier. A lot easier actually. I discovered avocado pudding, which really helped me with my chocolate craving! Once you get over the fact that it has avocados in it it is really good. 

I haven't noticed any difference in my headaches. I have heard that could take up to a month to notice a difference in that though. Things I have noticed? Most days I feel like I'm coming out of a fog that I have been in my whole life! It's really amazing to be honest. I'm not feeling as tired, although there have been some nights that I haven't slept well due to getting off a medicine that made me drowsy. So on those days I feel tired. I am not thinking about food nearly as much. I use to think about it all day, but now I just think about it come meal time, and even then I'm not always hungry at meal time so I just don't eat till I'm hungry. 

I have lost 6.6 pounds the first week and another 4.6 this second week! This brings my grand total (since starting weight watchers in January) to 20.6 pounds lost! When I hit 30 pounds lost I get to reward myself with a fitbit! I can't wait!

So there you have it. My update on going off refined sugars. I had my doubts, I honestly didn't think I could do it. However, here I am week two and I have only had one on purpose give in. (I was so stressed out with my kids that I ate a sugar cookie). There have been a couple of times that I ate refined sugar, but didn't know it. Oh and one time when I ordered something I thought would be sugar free, but my first bite I could taste it. I ate it anyway and felt sick the rest of the day!  

Until next time...

Monday, August 8, 2016

One week of no refined sugar...

For a while now I have been told to get off refined sugar in order to help with my headaches. I didn't think I could do it to be honest with you. I mean, really why do it when I can just take medicine? That was my old way of thinking. I guess I have had one too many headaches now that it is worth a try now. 

So I have officially completed my first week of lowering my refined sugar intake. I wanted to share some things that I have noticed just in this first week. So here goes:

1. The first few days were the hardest. Like I wanted to bite someones head off for no reason. I wanted to yell to the world to give me some freaking sugar! Not fun, but I prevailed.

2. I have noticed that I stay full in between meals. And not just staying full, but not thinking about food constantly. This is huge. Normally I am always thinking about food. Thinking about snacks, what to have for my next meal, what to have as a snack after said meal. So yeah, I'd say this is probably the biggest change in week one.

3. Refined sugar is in SO MANY THINGS! Seriously. Who would have thought that a can of re-fried beans had sugar in it? Well it does! Ugh. Oh and bacon. Bacon has sugar, they use it to cure it. This is why cooking and making things at home is probably best for this diet. 

4. I have become more creative with my food. For example: I couldn't figure out what to eat for lunch one day. So I finally decided to warm up some meat from the night before and make a salad. The only problem is that I didn't have any salad dressing that didn't have refined sugar in it. Ugh. So I searched my fridge. I decided to put unsweetened apple sauce on it. Y'all, this turned out to be pretty yummy! I was surprised! It was good. 

As I start week two, I'm not feeling as cranky. Which is good. I'm also not feeling the "give me some freaking sugar" feeling as much. Again, good. It might be a month or so before my body really reaps the benefits of going off refined sugar, but I like that I am seeing small steps even now. I can tell you that if I was doing this for weight loss, I probably wouldn't have stayed with it past day one! But because I am doing this to stop my headaches, it suddenly becomes worth it. I'm hoping that weight loss is a benefit too though. :)

Friday, February 19, 2016

Looking back on my list of 40 things to do before I turn 40...

It occurred to me this week that I haven't been checking things off of my list of 40 things to do before I turn 40. With my 35th birthday coming up I wanted to revisit that list and see where I am on checking things off. Let's start with saying I've got a lot to do before I turn 40! I can't believe it has been almost 2 years since I made this list and I've only crossed off 7 things! I've got to get busy!

  1. Lose 100 pounds
  2. (you don't need to see this, just trust me that I did it)
  3. Go on a trip with just Justin
  4. Go on a trip somewhere fun with just Justin and the kids
  5. Sew more
  6. Take some sort of class, like cake decorating, photography, or crafting class
  7. Have all of our boxes cleared out of the garage
  8. Run an entire 5K race
  9. Go camping in the back yard
  10. Do a cartwheel
  11. Go snorkeling
  12. Take a self defense class
  13. Take a girls trip to Las Vegas with my closest girl friends
  14. Get my passport
  15. Go to a Broadway musical in New York
  16. Go to an OSU football game
  17. Be in more pictures with Justin and the kids
  18. Write an article and submit it to a newspaper or magazine
  19. Have purple highlights in my hair
  20. Throw a birthday party for an underprivileged kid
  21. Sponsor a child through compassion international
  22. Go to a formal event with Justin
  23. Have a FRIENDS marathon weekend where I (and anyone else who wants to join me) watch all 10 seasons of FRIENDS in order. This may be more of a 2 weekend event
  24. Take the family to Disney World
  25. Re-do our wedding vows (after losing weight)
  26. Audition for a musical
  27. Make a family year book at least once
  28. Pay for a strangers meal
  29. Buy a bike and go on rides with my kids/family
  30. Host more get togethers
  31. Be able to wear a pair of boots that come to my knee
  32. Discover my inner Wonder Woman
  33. (I don't want to post this as it has to do with my husband)
  34. Wear makeup everyday for a month
  35. Buy fancy but comfy pajamas
  36. Serve others more than myself
  37. Do a Bible study and actually complete it
  38. Find a way to contribute to our families finances without compromising my role as a mom and wife
  39. Have another child, either biological or through adoption
  40. Climb an indoor rock climbing wall

Wednesday, February 3, 2016

Hello blog, It's me...

I didn't realize until this very moment that I hadn't blogged in forever! So today I shall blog about what all is going on in the life of me!

There is nothing like a diagnosis from your doctor to get you thinking about being more healthy. At a recent trip to the doctor I was told my cholesterol was high. Now to some this may not be a shocker, I mean I am over weight and not very active. To me though I was surprised! When it comes to things like cholesterol and blood pressure and all those things they test for at the doctor I have always had good reports. There was this one time my OBGYN told me I was pre, pre diabetic. That is when I lost 60 pounds. 

So after talking to my husband and doctors I decided it was time to go back to weight watchers. I loved weight watchers back before I had kids and I lost the 60 pounds. However, in the years since then they changed how things worked. For an emotional eater and someone who likes routine, this was not good. However, neither is high cholesterol, so off to weight watchers is was for me. 

I joined about a week ago and had my first weigh in yesterday. I lost 5 pounds! Yay! I know it won't be like that every week, but I was super excited! Now to continue on plan and hope they don't change things on me at the peak of my weight loss. 

Man, this blog post sounded so much better last night as I was laying in bed trying to go to sleep. It always does. One of these days I will just get up and type or write what I'm thinking, that way you all can read those poetic posts. :)

I guess that is it for now. If you think of me, please say a prayer that I will stick with this weight loss thing and truly change my way of life.

Thursday, July 2, 2015

To bikini or not to bikini, that is the question...

So yesterday I posted a question on Facebook in regards to bikinis. A lot of women responded with some really great points. I was worried people would just completely dis me and de-friend me, but everyone that commented kept it classy and I respect them all the more! So I am going to post below both the question and my response. Feel free to comment and remember to keep it classy. I am not in a war with you, I am simply starting a discussion! 

Here was what I put on Facebook: 

Let me ask you ladies a question: Would you take your children to a bra and panty fashion show?
If your answer is no, why then do you feel it appropriate to wear a bikini, which covers just as much, sometimes less than bra and panties?
I'm sure I'm going to get an ear full or get deleted from your friend list, but it's something that has been on my mind lately.

After reading so many good points from so many ladies, here is my response to why I wish most swim suits covered more skin:

1. Here is a little back story on me...Growing up, my dad was a pastor. He cheated on my mom at least twice that he admitted to. I wouldn't be surprised if it was more. Needless to say, I have trust issues. So one time when a lady at my husband's work asked him for a ride home, I was hacked! I never liked her much after that. Which was stupid, because these are my issues and not hers. My husband made me aware that he was taking her home, so it's not like he hid it from me. But I think you can see from my past why I would have issues. 

I also struggle with being afraid that I will be the one to cheat. There was this time that my husband and I had only been married for about two years or so and I had gone to church to work at the bookstore. Justin had stayed home with our son. I think I was mad at Justin for some reason, probably a stupid reason to be honest with you! So I'm sitting at the book store at church and one of our single guy friends came up and said "Hey Jessica, you look nice tonight". Now to him and to anyone else, this wasn't a big deal. However, to me it was! I was already feeling down because of whatever reason I was mad at Justin for and now this very nice man came up to me and told me I looked nice! I tell you what, by the time I got home my thoughts had taken me from being mad at Justin, feeling nice, thinking about the single guy friend, feeling horrible, and then pretty much feeling like I had just cheated on Justin! When I got home it took me a little while, but I finally told Justin about what was going on. Of course, he is so wonderful that he just sat there and comforted me and told me that it was going to be okay. 

Now, why do I tell you all this and what does it have to do with women wearing bikinis? First of all I don't want Justin to be tempted to look at another woman and I don't want to be tempting another man to look at me! Now, I can only control myself and what I wear and what I think about. So when I swim, I personally wear athletic shorts, because that is what I'm comfortable in, and a tank top swim top (a tankini). I do my best to limit the amount of cleavage I show. However, being larger in that area makes it hard to find things that limit it.  Let's face it, I'm not going to swim in a turtleneck! Now, on the end of Justin not being tempted, I too can do what I can to keep him from being tempted. What do I mean by that? Well I mean that I can make sure and please him in the bedroom so that if a beautiful woman comes by, his thoughts go to me instead of her! 

2. Comfort is an issue. Some ladies brought up that for them they are comfortable with their body and they aren't wearing the bikini to get others attention, they are comfortable in their own skin. I think this is great! However, men are very visual creatures! Women are very emotional creatures. Why do you think so many men struggle with pornography? I personally believe that my body is for my husband only. To be honest with you, I wouldn't feel comfortable with anyone else seeing my body anyway (well except doctors and even then I feel weird). I firmly believe that there are tankinis and even some bikinis that are okay to wear. If you chose to wear them, wear them tastefully if you are going to be around other men. Be confident in your skin, but be respectful of others at the same time!

Some ladies brought up the fact that a bikini just fits them better than anything else. I had never thought about this being an issue. But like I mentioned above I have issues with my top part, so I can for sure understand this. Again, I think it all goes back to wearing one that isn't a itty bitty barely covers your privates kind of thing. 

3. The kid issue! This is a HUGE issue for me. I have little boys, so I thankfully don't have to worry about buying little girl swim suits. But what I get frustrated about is when I see little girls in super skimpy bikinis. There are creepy people out there (both men and women) who for some reason or another like to prey on little kids. I HATE that we have to watch out for things like this. But the truth of the matter is we do. Cover your young girls up. Yes, teach them to love their body, but don't teach them to just show it off. 

I am for reals so thankful to the person who invented the tankini. Because seriously there is nothing worse than to have to go to the bathroom when you have a wet one piece on or to have to help your daughter (so I've heard) get her one piece off to use the bathroom!

WOW! I'm not going to lie, some of the ladies response to my question changed my thinking a little bit. One of my friends made a good point, that is that some one pieces are more revealing than some bikinis are! This is so true. I hadn't even considered that when I put this question up. Regardless of what we all think, I still respect them and I actually respect them even more for being willing to discuss this issue in a calm manner. 

Someone brought up the fact that we probably won't be having a swim party play date (a lot of the ladies commenting are part of a local mom's group). I didn't mean to make it to where we can't do a swim party play dates. Listen, here is the deal: I want to teach my boys to look at women with respect. When they get to the point that their hormones start kicking in, I want them to be able to talk to me and if it becomes an issue for them and it causes sexual sin, then yes, I may ask you to put a shirt on if you swim at my house in a revealing swim suit. But as long as things are good and they are respecting you and you respect us by not being in a skimpy one then we are good.  The same goes for my husband. If it becomes a problem, then we will simply ask you to cover up with a shirt or tank top. If you aren't willing to do that, then that is fine, but that is when we will no longer invite you over to swim. 

Special note to the ladies who commented on my FB page: Thanks ladies for the great conversation! I know I keep saying this, but I am just so thrilled with how you all responded! You are all beautiful women who I enjoy hanging out with. Just because we feel differently on some things doesn't mean we can't hang out and be friends!

Saturday, June 27, 2015

I am a Christian and I love you...

Yesterday a big decision was made through the Supreme Court of The United States of America. They legalized the marriage between same gender couples. 

I am a Christian.

I believe what the Bible says is truth.

I believe that as a Christian we are called to love everyone.

I believe that homosexual relationships are a sin. 

I know that I sin. 

So what is the difference between my sins and someone who practices homosexuality? When I sin I ask for God's forgiveness and then I do my best to stop doing that sin. But when you are in a relationship with a member of the same gender and you claim to be a Christian, you are choosing sin over repentance. Everyday you make a choice to continue living in a way that the Bible says you are not to be living. 

So here is what is bothering me. I am frustrated with the decision that was made, but what frustrates me more is when I see people, who claim to be Bible believing, Christ following people that are saying they are happy that "love won". I'm saddened that they have been blinded by Satan about what the Bible clearly states. I'm upset that these are the people that are teaching our kids in school, in church, in camps.

I'm also frustrated that as Christians we are being told to be quiet about what we believe. It seems to me that if we don't believe what the main stream media believes then we are wrong. And yet, they say, be open to all beliefs...well all but those that are 100% what the Bible says.

In the Bible, John 10:10 Jesus says this:
10 The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly.
I firmly believe that what is going on in our world today is Satan. He is destroying our world. I don't know about you, but today I am going to stand up for what I believe to be true. I am going to choose the life that God has come to give to us. I am going to accept that his truth is what will set me free.

Get behind me Satan!

Friday, May 29, 2015

Depression is real...

I'm having a rough week. Today I honestly just want to crawl under a blanket and go back to bed. Closing my eyes sounds so wonderful right now. And yet, here I am, awake and finding myself with much responsibility.

I suffer with depression. Do you? As a wife and mother of 2 boys, it's hard to suffer with depression. Because you're already feeling down and then the kids expect so much from you that you then beat yourself up for not being able to meet the needs of your kids. Then your husband comes home and you realize you have also let him down. It spirals deeper and deeper until all you want to do is close your eyes and dream. Dream about the thinner you, the more productive you, the active you. You can fill in the blank.

This usually lasts a few days. Then for some reason my hormones decide to change up and I find myself feeling better. Feeling like it doesn't matter that I'm over weight or that my house is a mess. But able to enjoy life. Able to enjoy my kids and my husband.

If you deal with depression I want to encourage you today to talk to someone about it. Don't let your thoughts stay inside your mind. Let someone else know what you are thinking. It can be your husband, although I recommend telling him in advance that you are just needing to get words out, that you don't really need his answer to your problems, just a listening ear. It can be a counselor. I highly recommend this! Find someone who believes the same as you do about God. I also recommend going to someone who is the same sex as you. You could find a trusted friend who is willing to listen and not judge. Most importantly, find someone to talk to. Maybe even start a blog or a journal to write your thoughts on.

I hope that you know that you aren't alone (I'm speaking to myself as much as I am to you).

Deuteronomy 31:8 (ESV)

It is the Lord who goes before you. He will be with you; he will not leave you or forsake you. Do not fear or be dismayed.”