I really don't know what to say in a time like this.
So I will say this, God loves you. He loves you so much that his son, Jesus, died on a cross for you. To be sure of your salvation, your future after death, then you must know him, accept him to be your savior. Trust in his power and his will.
If you have never trusted in God before, but want to then just pray to him and ask him to be the LORD of your life. I would also encourage you to contact a Bible believing church to help you learn and grow in your faith in God.
I would love to hear your story, your testimony of how you came to know God. Whether you were 4 or 98, share with those who need to hear it!