Miscarriage sucks. I'm really having a hard time lately dealing with it. I am mad. Surprisingly not at God, but just at the situation. I don't understand at all why this had to happen. I have heard all the things like "God has a plan" or "You will see her/him in heaven someday". I agree with those things, but seriously it just isn't helping me.
I feel guilty for feeling so upset about this because I do have two sweet boys that I get to love on. I feel like I shouldn't be so angry about it. The truth is I am. Sometimes I just want to punch a hole in the wall I am so mad.
Saturday night I had a huge breakdown. My poor husband. He is so sweet and patient with me. I wasn't sure what was bothering me at first, but after a little time to myself I figured it out. He listened to me cry and talked to me and helped calm me down. He has a very soothing voice.
I just wish I knew if I would ever get over this, if I will ever stop having the feeling of missing this baby I never knew.
I will say it again, miscarriage sucks.