So far so good...

It is day 5 of my 30 day challenge of not eating french fries and so far I have been able to stick to it! Yesterday was tough because the smell of fries was so yummy, but I resisted. I didn't even get Ian fries and he did just fine. Last night I stopped at Sonic and got the hubs something. His order included onion rings, which smelled so good and I think technically I could have had some, but I resisted. I even told him not to let me have one if I asked for it! When I got home I ate a fiber one muffin and still had some points left over. I decided not to finish my points for yesterday because I wasn't hungry and it was late.

So how are you doing ? Have you accepted a challenge for yourself? I would love to hear about it! Leave a comment and share with me your story or a link to your blog.

On Owen news, he finally rolled over! I was so excited! He is just getting so big and soon will start developing his own little personality. I can't wait!

30 days and a size 18...

I can not even tell you how excited I was when I pulled my size 18 jeans up over my thighs and buttoned them and zipped them this week! It was an amazing feeling! I am pretty sure I wore them four days in a row because I was so excited! Then to top things off a friend from church brought me a big bag of clothes! God really knows how to provide.

I have decided to challenge myself to not eat fries for the next 30 days. That means no ordering them AND no snitching them off Justin or Ian's plate. I know I can do this. In fact one summer when I was in high school my mom and I decided to do this for the entire summer. I am going to start ordering either fruit or salad as my side. Or, like tonight, I ordered a jamocha shake from Arby's (only because I had the points for it) and I am very satisfied! The last few days I have ordered a salad with my chicken sandwich from Chick-fil-a. I think this will be a great way to keep me motivated. Do you want to join the challenge with me? Leave me a comment if you want to join with me!

Here are some cute picture, just because I love posting pictures of my cute boys :)

Year of the "what if"...

It isn't news that I suffer from depression. In fact I am pretty sure I talk about it on my blog on a regular basis. With that being said, I go to see a counselor. Most of the time I go not really knowing what to talk about that day.

Well yesterday was no different. I went in not really knowing what we would talk about. I think counselors must be trained to get things out of you, because she does a good job with getting me to talk. Anyways, we started talking about my weight watchers stuff and she had me do a deal with tapping and repeating what she said. The things she had me repeat really got me thinking and encouraged to go head on with my weight loss.

The things she had me say were "what if" statements. For example: "what if I tracked all my points this year" or "what if I worked out on a regular basis this year" and "what if I made it through this year with out getting pregnant" (ok, that was one I threw in, but you get the idea).

So I have decided this will by my year to loose weight. Because what if I track my points this year? What will happen? I foresee a successful year of weight loss that is what! So who is with me? What is your "what if" statement to get you encouraged this year?

More of my recent crafts...

Last week on facebook there was a fun little challenge going around for crafty people. I actually do not consider myself crafty. I do love working on crafty things, however I feel I am much too inexperienced at it to call myself crafty.

Anyways, someone started this:

is participating in "Pay It Forward for Creative People": I promise to send something handmade to the first 5 people who leave a comment to this update. HERE'S THE CATCH: You must in turn promise to post this and send something you made to the first 5 people who leave a comment to Your update. The rules are that it must be handmade by you and it must be sent to your 5 people sometime in 2011!

I thought it sounded fun, so I re-posted it and started thinking of what I would make those that left comments on it. Here is what I came up with!

This first one is for someone who mentioned she likes to cook. It is a recipe holder! I got the cupcake deal at Hobby Lobby (of course) and then just used Mod Podge on the back to attach a clothes pin to it. I also put a little piece of paper on the back to cover up the excess tag that I couldn't scrape off. I also used a scrap book "sticker" and put it on the front. It says "nothing say lovin' like something from the oven". I think that is my favorite part!

The second two are picture frames with magnets on the back. They work perfectly for your fridge or perhaps a file cabinet at work. These were easy to make. I bought a package of cardboard frames and used Mod Podge to put the scrap book paper on it. Then used scrap book "stickers" to make it stand out a little more (on the first one it says "special little memories" and on the second one it says "blessed").

Can you tell I love Mod Podge? I am pretty sure it is the best thing ever! I am sure I have only begun to see what all Mod Podge can be used for. Have you seen this blog, Mod Podge Rocks? It is such a fun blog to go to. Although you very well may end up spending all day looking at all the fun things.

Some day I hope to be able to call myself crafty. But until that point I am going to enjoy "practicing". It really is a fun thing to do.

The deepness grows...

Yesterday I realized something. It was something that was hard for me to say out loud and when I prayed about it with Justin I began to cry in a way that I haven't cried in a while. I almost felt a little bit of loss.

What is it that caused such a reaction in my heart? Well I realized that I so desperately wanted a girl of my own that I don't think adoption would fill that hole that is in my heart. By "my own" I mean biological of course.

It tore me up. I mean I have said for a long time that if our next child was a boy that I would want to adopt a girl. But after having such a strong desire to have my own daughter I realized it would not be fair to adopt.

I was also torn up because here I am so blessed by my sweet Ian and Owen and yet I am crying about not having a little girl, while all the time there are people who have not had the experience of holding their sweet baby. I felt so selfish.

The good news in all of this is I have been reading a book series by Lynn Austin called the Chronicles of the Kings. It is really good and I really feel like it is bringing my relationship with Christ to a new level. The way I cried last night while praying was something I haven't felt is a long time, if ever. I longed to cry out to our Yahweh. I wanted to ask him to be my strength rather than to give me strength. I want so desperately to have this deepness continue to grow.

That brings me to another thing. My church is doing a women's Bible study on Proverbs 31! I am so excited and can't wait to start it next week. It was such perfect timing since I have been trying to work on being a Proverbs 31 women.

crafts...

Crafts, crafts and more crafts! That is actually what I wish I could do all day long. Oh how I dream. Of course my crafts are far from being wonderfully perfect. But I do have fun making them. Here are a few things I have recently made.

This hat was made for my friend Alicia. She wanted the bling, so I gave it to her! Actually she wanted a crown, but for some reason I can't figure out how to get the iron on to actually iron on with out coming apart when I take the top part off. Anyways, I like how it turned out and she seems pleased so all in all it worked out good. Plus, I had a lot of fun making it and purchased a bedazzler like tool to help out with it!

This hat was for one of my bff's Misti. Not so blingy (is that a word?) but fun to make just the same! Doesn't she just look adorable?

I made this frame for my sister in law Stephanie's birthday. This was fun to make too! I also made a frame for my Mother in law and Father in law, however I forgot to take a picture of it before sending it off to Florida :( It was cute though (at least I thought so).

It's a new year!

Wow can you believe that 2011 is here? I am pretty sure that people say this at the beginning of every year, aren't you?

This year we traveled to the Kansas City area and spent the weekend with our friends Steve and Liesl. We had a great time. I didn't know that that part of Kansas was so pretty. I really just thought of Kansas as all flat land. But this part was very pretty and almost reminded me a little of Colorado.

We found fun places to go and shop and eat. We got some very yummy coffee (well I got a coffee drink, Justin got a caramel hot chocolate) at Caribou Coffee.

The best part of course was being able to hang out with our sweet friends. I miss them, but I am glad that God has put them where they are, even it is stinking cold. ;) Above are a few pictures from our weekend. I hope you all had a great new years like we did!

More post are sure to come this year. I am falling behind on my blogging, but I want to get back into the grove of things.