How God talks to us...

So this was part of my reading this morning and I thought I would share it with all of you...

Here are three of the most difficult words any Christian will ever have to utter: I don't know. Somehow we have developed the notion that being unable to explain God's actions and attributes is a sign of spiritual weakness or immaturity. Job repeatedly took God to task because of the seemingly unreasonable things God was doing in his life. Knowing that God was absolutely just and impartial, Job concluded that God owed him an explanation. But young Elihu reminded Job of another important truth about God: his ways are different from human ways. In the words of the prophet Isaiah, "My thoughts are nothing like your thoughts,' says the Lord. 'And my ways are far beyond anything you could imagine." (Isaiah 55:8) Just as you must trust the surgeon to do his skillful work even though you do not understand all his techniques, so God is asking you to trust him to accomplish his purpose in your life - even though it may involve "surgery" you will not understand this side of heaven.

Job 37:14-18 - (14) "Pay attention to this, Job. Stop and consider the wonderful miracles of God! (15) Do you know how God controls the storm and causes the lightning to flash from his clouds? (16) Do you understand how he moves the clouds with wonderful perfection and skill? (17) When you are sweltering in your clothes and south wind dies down and everything is still, (18) he makes the skies reflect the heat like a bronze mirror. Can you do that?

Why?

I don't know why things happen the way they do. The truth is I know that God has a plan for all things, but it still puts me in a place of confusion when things like miscarriages happen. Since December I have had 3 friends going through miscarriages, plus one friend who lost her baby 2 weeks before her due date. I don't know why God lets some women have there baby and some not. I want to dedicate this entry to all those who have lost there little one for whatever reason. For those I know by name I am praying for you daily and for those I don't know, I pray for women who are in your situation and know that I am sure there are people praying for you too by name. Please know that I love you all and if I can do anything to help or if you just want to talk I am here for you.

It's back....

Heartburn that is. From what I read it is because of my growing muscles relaxing or something like that. Well it isn't that much fun, if it were up to me I would tell my muscles not to relax! Ok, maybe not because I am sure this is how God intended it to be. Also, I read today that because of my growing uterus I may feel discomfort when I get up from a chair or change position. This has been going on for a few weeks now, so I am glad to hear that it is normal. The bad thing is that I am a tosser and turner when sleeping so I feel like I wake up every time I change positions.

I think that the iron might be setting in but I am still tired. Although I don't feel like it is the same kind of tired. It is more like I didn't sleep enough tired, but can still pull myself together to get things done, rather than I can't get up off the couch for the life of me kind of tired. So this is good.

Ian is moving quite often now. Justin has been able to feel him move twice now. It is funny because I will feel him move and tell Justin so then Justin will try and feel but that will be the only time he moved was right before. Oh well, as time goes by I am sure he will be able to feel him move more!

Low Iron

So I had some blood work this week that came back and showed that I have low iron. The doctor gave me some iron supplements to take for a few weeks and then I will go back to see how I am doing. Hopefully this will help with my energy level and I will feel like doing more things during the day rather than sleep.

So very sad...

I just read on one of my friends blogs that Steven Curtis Chapman lost his daughter last night in a car accident. This is so sad. Please pray for his family as they go threw this trying time of loss. I couldn't imagine going through such a thing.

kicking...

So I have for sure been feeling the baby move around! It is really cool, although at 3 in the morning when I am trying to go back to sleep after having had to go to the bathroom, it can be kind of annoying. But I like that I can know that I am feeling Ian move. (Oh, I don't think I had mentioned the name of our little one yet! Well he will be Ian Clark). Also, Justin was able to feel the kicking last night! I was so glad! I think it has made our little one all the more real now. I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow morning. Justin has been so great and has gone to everyone of my appointments! Perhaps there will come a time when he won't be able to, but I am so glad that he wants to come to them! He is so great. :)

A 9 year olds lesson...

So on Thursday it was my niece's birthday. I can't believe she is 9 years old! Anyway, I didn't get to call her until after 8pm, at which point I didn't know if it would be past or getting close to her bed time. It turns out she was awake and would have to call me back. So in the mean time Justin and I went to Walmart. Once we were there Kylie called me back and we talked about what she would be doing for her birthday, you know the typical bday conversation. Then I told her that if we weren't in Walmart I would sing Happy Birthday to her, but I was afraid that all the people would look at me funny. (I was kind of joking and kind of serious). She in turn says "Who cares what they think, screw them!" It was a lesson that I know her parents have been trying to teach for a while, that it doesn't matter what others think. Well I sure did learn a lesson from her! So right in the middle of Walmart I broke out into Happy Birthday, and Justin joined along too! And do you know what? Not one person looked at me funny, although I think the whole entire Walmart heard me sing it!

Well not much to say this week. I am still so excited about having a boy! It has made this pregnancy so much more real finding out what we are having. Now we can refer to the baby as him or he! I think of our sweet little boy all the time! Who will he look like? Who will he sound like? Will he be a genius like his dad or perhaps he will be more of a hands on learner like mommy. Oh I can't wait to see him and hold him in my arms! What an amazing little blessing baby's are.

Oh, I forgot to mention that I have the best husband in world! He got me a "happy mother to be" card for mothers day and also gave me a CD that I have been wanting for a while. And he wrote in the card some pretty special things, which means a lot because he is usually just a name signer, which is fine, but when I read the card I almost cried. I love him so much! He is going to be such a great dad.

Our little one is a....

BOY!!!!!! So for all 14 of you that voted for a boy you were correct! We are so excited and can't wait to hold our little boy. Justin's parents were able to be here for the ultra sound and then took us shopping this afternoon for some cute baby boy clothes!

today is the day!!!!!!!

It is early in the morning on May 7th and I can't sleep. I had a dream that we over slept so I can't go back to sleep now. Plus my allergies are going strong this morning so that is keeping me awake too. Well today is the big ultra sound!!!!!! I can't wait to see our little one! Of course it would be great is he/she cooperated and kicked those legs open so we could know if he/she is a he or a she! I will write again later today to post what we are having!

3 days and counting!!!!!!!!!

Ok, the title is all I really wanted to share! Oh, by the way I am now officially 19 weeks pregnant! At week 20 I will be half way there!